Sunday, July 19, 2009

Where to start...

Well, where to begin. My girl's name is Stacey. I am 25 and born of the male gender. My life has been a confusing one for several years. When I was about 8 or 9ish, I was very curious about my mother's clothing. She didn't have the world's sexiest clothes or lingerie. It was a starting point for me. I, as many others like me, would sneak in and try them on. Over the years I was never caught in the act, but she did find out that I was moving things around, so she has some idea. I don't think she really thought to much into it. I wished that maybe that she would come to me and have an open mind and say it's ok, but that's always a double edge sword. Come to find out, she is not fully open to those kind of things.

So over the years I did that without much worry. I started to think, why to girls get to have a variety of choices with clothing and other things. I envied them. Where as most guys checked out girls for if they wanted to "get" with them, I was mainly looking at them for things I would like myself to look like or be. No one close ever knew these secrets about me. I would chat online with random people and of course nothing ever panned out there.

As things moved on, I began to think about other things. I had only ever thought about girls, since that what boys were to think about. I would think about girls, but I started to think about cocks, forced fem, bondage, spanking, Mistress&Master/slave, etc. My mind was thinking about these things at incredible speeds. Sometimes hard to focus on other things.

Stacey started to come out more and wanted to understand herself. And this is why I am here. To understand, explore, listen, ask question, etc.

I am newly married and my wife knows little about any of this part of me. I would love for her to really like this part of me but I haven't been able to get to a point where it seems she would be ok with this.

I will be posting things I think about, sites I like, pictures I like, questions I have and really whatever else I want.....hehe.

Well, here's to what could be something that could help me understand more about myself and maybe make a few friends along the way.

Until next, have fun.

1 comment:

  1. hey j b, I'm right there with you, especially about keeping all this a secret.