Thursday, June 3, 2010

Crazy dream....what does it mean?

Here is the dream.

So I was somewhere like at an event or something, and I was still married, but wife was somewhere else or out of town or something. I run into an older lady, maybe in early 40's or 50's. we start talking and having a good conversation and suddenly someone spills something on my pants. The lady tells me to go to her room to take care of it and says there are some things up there I could probably use to change into until we clean the clothes up. So i go upstairs and look around, there's no clothes i could use that would really work, but I do see she has done some laundry and for some reason I had to take off my pants and undies because they are soaked in something that needs some deep cleaning. So I take my pants and undies off and put on some of her panties and nothing else. My shirt is pretty long so it covers me and since it was a small group we were in, I figured they would understand and no one would be able to see the panties. So I return downstairs and sit with her and we continue our conversation. We are joking around and she every once in a while puts her hand on my leg, not to long, but I still notice it, but don't think to much of it. Then without warning, she starts rubbing me over the panties and does that while just smiling and pretending that everything is just fine. I start to freak a little but keep it under control. She just whispers "I understand and know what you want and I can help you." I try to resist, but she keeps going back to rubbing me over the panties. Pretty soon I start to feel I should just give in and do what she wants. And wouldn't you know it that's when I woke up.....I hate when that happens in the middle of a dream.

So I wanting to know if anyone understands my dream here and might explain it back to me. Please let me know, would love to hear from anyone.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Updates, updates and more updates

Well where to begin.

First, after my last post back in Sept, I was told by the company I worked for, it was being sold and my whole department was being laid off. At the end of Nov. was my last day there (right before Thanksgiving). So right now I am unemployed and looking for work. So I'm in the same boat as a lot of people are.

About this time I also had to stop seeing my therapist. Main reason was money. If I had the money and not worry about it, I would be going at least one time a week. She was great, listened and helped things move along.

Also about a month ago, we had a bad ice storm. I was exiting the highway with my wife and the car spun and hit the guard rail and then spun around and the back end hit as well. We found a car and got it. We just finished up all the process this last weekend.

And lastly we just moved about 2 weeks ago. Getting everything in place and stored away. Purging crap we don't need. Sometimes I just wish to throw everything away. Also while moving, wife and I had a huge fight and...yeah....I walked out and she came after me and we cried together.....yeah fun I know.

So that's kind of all the "normal" stuff that has gone on over the last several months. Now on to the other things.

Well I still haven't done anything with a guy. I just feel guilty whenever I think about those kinds of things, but I do think about it. I sometimes dress from time to time, but of course it's hard to do that when wife is around.

Recently, I was doing some anal play with a suction cup dildo. I ended up with it on the top of the toilet seat lid and I was riding it backwards. While do this I was grinding on it, not up and down. This felt great. I kept going and going and I finally ended with me cumming without me touching myself. It was hot.

The only problem I've had recently is I get headaches while doing anything sexual (masturbating and/or sex). It doesn't happen all the time, but unless it goes away soon, I will be asking my doctor about that. Might be that I need to be more active and eat better. So anyone have any ideas on that, please let me know.

So that's about it. That's the craziness of it all.